Realization of love

The love that she has for him had almost faded from view. By her own hand, it was nearly destroyed. All that she built up, all that she fought for, had almost perished that unhealthy day. If she had only realized, how it hurt him so, she would never have let it go. she took a vow, to uphold her end, but it nearly all came crashing down in the blink of an eye.
From that day forward, she took another vow. to change her ways, to bring about a new person. One that could stand up, and not crumble to the floor. Little by little, she built up what she had for so long fought for. Now she lives in happiness and harmony.
They have grown from that day on. Deeper in love. They have grown stronger together. For it was her, who let him down, time after time.
In the beginning, she was weak. In search of her rock. She didn't know what she wanted, she was too young to truly know. The life she thought she wanted was far beyond,what she thought she really wanted. But, now she knows, this is the life she dreamt up. In time, she grew up. She realize the true meaning of love, happiness, and unity.
She thinks back on the day that it all happened, and see that her old ways was leading her down a beaten path. She thought, that she needed someone else to lead her way. But she saw that she was wrong. She needed to clear a path for herself. But herself alone, could not always make it through. she realized that another person was needed to help her along in times that she felt she could not go on, that it was too hard, to difficult. He came and said, " Come, my dear, Take my hand and I will show you the way. I will be there when the time get tough, to pick you up and carry you though. cause as long as were here together, nothing can block the path. All I ask in return, is that you do the same. Take my hand and help me though the brush, Clear my way, so that I may see, clearly where we need to be."

Take my hand - come walk with me
along life's winding way.
Take my hand- come stand with me
Together we will say:

It's you that I have chosen;
It's you with whom I'll stay.
It you with whom I'll share my life,
I want no other way.

I want you always by my side
Through laughter and through tears.
The good - the bad- we'll share it all
Through the coming years.

Because I want this union
To continue to be blessed,
I pray we both care enough
To always give our best.

I know that if we do our best,
Then when our journey ends,
We'll find that we've come through it all
Still lovers.....ever friends.
Author- Unknown


I love you my dear, forever on end.
In the times I've hurt you,
Please allow me to make amends.

For it was me who weak,
me who wondered from the path,
it was me who needed to find
my way back.

Alone, I thought
But in time I saw you were always
there waiting for me
to ask for you hand
you help me through
help me clear the path.

Together, we will achieve
together we will believe
together we will walk the path
and always wait for the other
no matter how long it takes.

As time passes, we will grow
we will be the wind behind the other
to gently push us on, but never blow us down.

I love you my dear, I will never part
please allow me to show you this
from deep within my heart.
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From the Heart.. deep within

As the days come and go and the years pass by, she soon comes to wonder just how much family will really stay near. Year by year,she could only do so much to let her voice be heard. She tried so hard to bring love, peace, kindness and compassion to the chaos and hatred she saw before her, only to be met with the very thing in which she single handedly tried to stop. After a while it took its toll, and left her to wonder, was it really worth it.
She still cannot make them see her true intentions.
The voice from within, that was silenced.
For it was them who called her the bad one in the time of chaos.For it was her only intention to bring about love and peace, kindness and compassion. They did not understand, how it it hurt her, and so it went, after a while she eventually faded into the background, left alone, hurting by her own.
Once named the baby sister, upheld, protected, loved. Nevermore. She faded away, never truly known by those she once called her protectors, her brothers.

But, there day will come, when they call upon her, and their voices fall on deaf ears.
For she had tried to be heard, to catch their ears, to let them know she was still there. But some how, her tiny voice was lost in the wind that traveled miles to reach them. But, the day will come when they remember, that there once was a little girl, waiting for their hand to take hers, and lead her down the path, teach her, protect her, love and hug her. For all she really needed was to hear a voice call back, telling her she had not been forgotten, reassuring her that they were there, and that she would never fade into the background, and yet, it never came.

It is my own inner thoughts that is keeping me from what I have dreamt of. It is only that in which I hold dear that keeps me from achieving that in which I seek. If only I were to change that in which I think, I will achieve. Changing ones thoughts is only the start of the path in which you ultimately seek. Until you change the thoughts that you hold in your mind, will you start to see the life that in which you truly want, unfold before your eyes.

Friends come and go, and the ones you hold dear will stay with you for ever. You can talk to a person, and try to stear them down one path, a good path in which they them self will succeed, will you truly be able to feel happy for them.

As you go through life wondering what it has in store for you, You believe that you may never achieve the dreams in which you have dreamt of for so long, not realizing that it is you in which is holding back those very thing you have wished for. Until you realize that it is your own thoughts, that is doing the very thing in which you think you may never be able to achieve, your dreams will always stay just that. A dream. Until you realize the full potential of your thoughts, you will stay on the the path in which you have directed yourself down. An unachievable dream.

Until you change your thoughts to that of which you know you can achieve, you will see that the universe,you may call it GOD, whatever, its all the same thing. You will see that it will provide for you no matter what. When it doesn't, it is you that is holding you back, from that in which you believe you cannot achieve.

Love, kindness, and compassion will show you the way, through thick and then. not matter what you feel you can acheive. Stay in control of your thought and believe what you know you have always been able to do. Never give up now matter how hard it gets. if you believe you can do it then it can be done. but the moment you give up, then all hope is lost. once you realize your full potential then, you will see that with just your thought alone, you can achieve anything. just keep thinking that it is your thoughts alone that can achieve anything that you want.

Teachings

Sometimes I wonder what is being taught to me through my family.....

well, let's see......

family is always there for you through everything that you can imagine. No matter what it may be.
Right and wrong. Though, sometimes, they may lead you down a path that may seem wrong, you think to yourself, what is it that the universe is trying to teach me today.
Well, thinking logically, you may or may not get it. However, you need to go deep within yourself to find the true answer. Is it trying to teach me that blood is thicker than water or just the opposite.

One always thinks that fmaily just doesnt understand your perspective, but really they don't, but you come to realize, that their subconcious really does, they just dont realize it.

They think their helping you and you think exactly the opposite.

But, in time you realize that they do.

one day, you will see the whole truth, That this world is just a mere projection of everyones thoughts interacting with each other, its up to you to sort it all out and establish what is the truth and what is the imaginary truth interacting with your reality.

Religion is never the truth. No matter who you are.

Metaphiscally speaking, you see that one is living in a projection of everyones thoughts interacting with one another.

The amount of energy you put into a single thought, is the amount you will get out of it, weather it be a negative or positive thought. you must, always keep a positive mind in every situation, doesnt matter if you feelings think otherwise. Positivity is always the best route to follow.

We need to raise our vibrational energy level to a point in this reality that no matter what situaion you are in, it will always, always, work out for the better.

In this life one realizes that all things happen for a reason. A maifestation of that in which what one is thinking. when you come to realize this, everything will fall into place. All that we are, is a result of what we have thought. When you are thinking nothing but negative thoughts, you day will be nothing but negative, nothing will turn out the way you want. When you think nothing but positive, everything will go as planned. Even when you stray from the path, you can redirect you negative thoughts to positive and you will eel better about the day and those around you.

1st post of the new year... late

well, here I am, in the new year. everything is going great! I'm almost done with school, my two classes I am taking this mod are a blast. I have two of a few great teachers.

Im taking urgent care with Dr. Sanchez, who is great. Although his trying to compare how he unravels a bandage to toilet paper. hmm... little odd.. but okay... lol. I've had him as an instructor for the 3rd 4th time now..
My other class, Adv. diagnostic testing, with Mr. Beard. He's great too. I'm just having so much fun.

Home life is going good. Kayla is having fun at school, it helps me out too that she's gone for 6 hours, and Demi takes a nap for 2, give me a chance to get things done in the house.

Now, for the purpose of my blog.

I have come to realize since being here, in existence, that people and things come into my life, for the underlying purpose to teach me things. whether be things that I need to improve on o things that I need to learn.

We have all come into this physical reality as spiritual beings in human form ( I like to call it a shell) to seek experiences in which rich our lives. Our spiritual being within us, seeks and thirst for knowledge. Good or bad. but in order to enrich your life in the best positive way, you must keep a positive energy (we all are nothing but) flow going through us. do what makes you feel good. That does not mean, Repeat, DOES NOT mean, doing harm to other physically,mentally, or emotionally, to bring yourself up. if you do, it will stay with you and your vibrational energy will stay at a low level. When you have a high positive energy flow, you feel good, those around you feel good, you are able to deal with life and all its obstacles, in a good positive way.

Today, I will post some quotes from the Dahli Lama, and interpret though my mind.

Judge your success by what you had to give up in order to get it.

- to me this means, if you have to knock everyone else down to get to where you want in to be in life, then its not worth getting, and you do not deserve it. We do not bring others down for our personal benefit, But, we do bring them up with us, for it will surely raise our positive energy and make us feel good to bring others with us on the path.


Pain is inevitable, suffering is optional.

- everywhere we go in this world there is pain. we have not choice but to see,hear and feel it. However, that does not mean that we have to inflict the suffering upon ourselves. you will never move on, never be happy, and it will end up causing you to dwindle away, and become a bitter being, because you have taken the option to suffer from the pain.

Love and compassion are necessities, not luxuries. Without them, humanity cannot survive.

- This is very true.
I'm the beggar on the corner
You’ve passed me on the street
I wouldn't be out here begging if I had enough to eat
And don't think I don't notice that our eyes never meet


Most of you have heard this song, but how very true is it that you see some on the street begging, and just pass them by as if you don't even notice that their there in need of help, or just a kind word, you think you are higher above because you have money. money is nothing. its not meant to last, it destroys families, loved ones, and makes people selfish and bitter.


life it not about what you have, but what you have to offer others, through love and compassion, not matter who they are, where they are, or where they come from. these two simple words are all you need to carry.

I pray for a more friendly, more caring, and more understanding human family on this planet. To all who dislike suffering, who cherish lasting happiness, this is my heartfelt appeal.


Live in Joy, In love,
Even among those who hate.

Live in joy, In health,
Even among the afflicted.

Live in joy, In peace,
Even among the troubled.

Look within. Be still.
Free from fear and attachment,
Know the sweet joy of living in the way.